There is simply one image that I was drawn to while searching for a boutique hotel to add to my collection of bucket list hotels. You know for that special occasion or to simply pamper myself. The very image below in one from my childhood summer vacation days, perched around a table with extended families, for hours over dinners somewhere in the Mediterranean in a setting exactly as this: Take the tour
I spend most of my days working long hours, 12-18 to provide a reference point. But while I robotically tap against the keyboard, or conduct a meeting to discuss like issues or plans to improve, my mind strangely wanders off…to the novels I’ve drafted (now going on five years) where I keep vowing each year to publish. Maybe this year, where my priorities have shifted a bit, from caregiver to someone learning to get past the grief. At least that is the plan. Do you find yourself setting goals you are not able to achieve? And if so, are most of the hurdles within your control or ones outside?
As I drove home in the early morning hours, from a quick holiday weekend trip up north, I began to sob uncontrollably when the song ‘Where are you Christmas‘ streamed aloud through the surround sound in my car. I did my best to stay strong and in the moment, while visiting family, playing with pets, kids and engaging in conversation – but my mind was elsewhere, far, far away, mainly wondering where my mother might be spending Christmas in the afterlife? Is there an afterlife? And where is it located? Were thoughts that followed as I journeyed along the highway; the full moon my escort. I wondered if I will ever see here again…you know, in the heavens above, or…not sure if our paths will ever cross again. The thought of it all, churning my stomach and sending my heart to an uneasy flutter as I veered the car left, then right, coasting along. The song blended into the next, suggesting to, ‘Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas’. I mumbled the verses to the very …
A co-worker of mine announced late Friday night that she was resigning. Not much details to offer up but wanted to let me know nonetheless. My heart sunk to the pit of my stomach. Not because she was resigning ‘understandably so’, but because I realized just then that I had no room in my heart or head to take on another disappointing news. You see I’ve been trying to keep it together for weeks, about my mother’s health and the idea of losing her on any given day… I’ve been floating through life since coming to terms with her not recovering from her last Intensive care stay… which led to in-home hospice care. So many emotions have filtered through my being since, causing me to burst into tears, to having panic attacks, to no sleep at nights, or eat to not having the drive to go on and yet… I have worked by her bedside every day for 18 hours to help me cope, I suppose. But yet…that coping has led to more disappointment about …
Today of all days all I will focus on are the positives…
Do you believe, that where you are today in your life, is the path that will lead you to where you really need to be ultimately? I believe it… Think about it If things don’t pan out the way they do every single year from birth to current state, then how will you achieve the personal growth to become your own-individual-success story? All roads literally do lead….to where we are all destined to be…never mind the detours along the way Have an amazing day! {source}
I felt the need to share what’s been on my mind lately …
I usually catch up with a select few of my friends whom I’ve known forever, and family members, maybe a few times a year. However, I’ve felt a deeper connection here at RawSilkandSaffron, where I felt the need to stay in touch more often then the two or three times a year. But it seems, with every hectic day that passes, now the 17th of March already, the connection is too few and far between. No excuse. It is a reflection of what life has become since 2020. Anyway. Here I am taking a very small break, in between work madness, to stop here and share all the things that are going through my mind every single minute of the day, and in between all of the juggling and multi-tasking. Mad weather in California, leaky roofs and other damage, and cost of the impending repair. The idea of losing an aging parent is in the forefront of all my thoughts, contained only in the early morning hours, when all are still asleep. Where I plug …
August is a tricky month for most parents as they gear up their school aged children for returning their academic year. Whether returning to, or heading to a new establishment for higher learning, maneuvering the ritual can be pretty some form of memorable experience to say the least. So I get it if you don’t stop and read the interesting topics I have added here. I’ve had the pleasure of visiting Dijon, France, where I spent an entire day experimenting with the mustard produced in the region. So much so, I nearly brought a suitcase load of the product. So naturally the idea of ‘why there is no Dijon in Dijon Mustard‘ read, sparked my interest. The rebirth of an amazing destination made famous by writers and celebrity of all types – Cuba – where now a portion of the small island in the Caribbean, Matanzas, is going through major renovation worth reading about. A destination surely on my bucket list How Rome’s monuments are still standing – do you ever wonder? Do you dabble …
elegance: the quality of being pleasingly ingenious and simple; neatness. In my search for the simpler things in life, I have to stay the following has stood out. Featured image source
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